Day 17 A.B.

So today is the 17th day after my break up...and let me just tell you, breakups are stupid. Especially adult breakups. 

Here I've spent almost the last two years with this guy who made me want more of a future with someone. Then all of a sudden it's gone. We had mutual purchases, spent two Christmases, two birthdays each together. So obviously I met his family, and he mine. So now what do I do? Do I un-friend everyone on facebook? Stop following them on instagram and twitter? And what about our mutual friends? You know, the people we hung out with together? He also met my friends and I his. I feel like disconnecting myself from them all makes me seem childish, but right now it's painful. So I just have hidden all their posts from my feed for now until I can figure out what to do.

Thank goodness I have kept myself busy. But that doesn't mean it's not hard. That doesn't mean I didn't cry tonight driving the 2 miles between the place I met up with him to return his belongings and my friend's house for dinner. That doesn't mean I don't dream about him and wake up upset...

But I'm getting there. 1 day further out from breakup is one day closer to getting back to me. But this in-between--the in-between serious relationship and getting back to the person I was--it's kind of lame. For real. I just need someone to snap their fingers and put me back to where I was back in June 2012.

1 day further out is 1 step closer. And that's all I can work with for now.