Thursday, May 29, 2014

Day 17 A.B.

So today is the 17th day after my break up...and let me just tell you, breakups are stupid. Especially adult breakups. 

Here I've spent almost the last two years with this guy who made me want more of a future with someone. Then all of a sudden it's gone. We had mutual purchases, spent two Christmases, two birthdays each together. So obviously I met his family, and he mine. So now what do I do? Do I un-friend everyone on facebook? Stop following them on instagram and twitter? And what about our mutual friends? You know, the people we hung out with together? He also met my friends and I his. I feel like disconnecting myself from them all makes me seem childish, but right now it's painful. So I just have hidden all their posts from my feed for now until I can figure out what to do.

Thank goodness I have kept myself busy. But that doesn't mean it's not hard. That doesn't mean I didn't cry tonight driving the 2 miles between the place I met up with him to return his belongings and my friend's house for dinner. That doesn't mean I don't dream about him and wake up upset...

But I'm getting there. 1 day further out from breakup is one day closer to getting back to me. But this in-between--the in-between serious relationship and getting back to the person I was--it's kind of lame. For real. I just need someone to snap their fingers and put me back to where I was back in June 2012.

1 day further out is 1 step closer. And that's all I can work with for now.

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

So it's obviously been too long.

Hello my dear friends! Did you miss me? I sure missed you guys.

I haven't had a personal computer be in good operating condition in about 2 years. I attempted to blog from my phone, but the Blogger app is not very mobile-friendly in any way, shape, or form.

Anyways, I went to Best Buy yesterday to switch out my phone (I had shattered it), and my mom convinced me to purchase a laptop that was on sale for Memorial Day. NOW I'M BACK IN BUSINESS!

Some highlights from the past couple of years (I'll just hit the big ones):
  • I left my job at Bank of Oklahoma and started working at a health insurance company. In the health field, but don't know if it's fully utilizing my degree. It could be worse! BUT, I have been at my job for just over a year and I STILL love it. Never regret changing careers for one minute.
  • I got a boyfriend in August 2012. We broke up a couple weeks ago. I was upset, but I will eventually be okay. Sometimes, things just don't work out, no matter how much you want them to, or how hard you fight for it.
  • I am all booked up for all kinds of concerts this year! Starting December 28, concerts in this order: Zac Brown Band, Imagine Dragons, George Strait, Bruno Mars, Backstreet Boys (eeeeeeep!!!), Center of the Universe festival here in Tulsa, OneRepublic, The Black Keys. And I wonder why I have no money. ha!
You know, I really can't think of other big things. I wish I could, but I'm still in shock that I actually bought something this expensive for myself. And that after almost 2 years, I got dumped. It is what it is I guess.

Let's hope that my blogging picks back up where it left off, and that I can stay consistent.