well, it appears that I continue to slack on my blogging. I have another new addiction..myyearbook.com. my link is http://www.myyearbook.com/browneyedbeauty44/
I made it to where it matched my xanga name....so yeah, that has consumed my time. bleh.

I had an emotional breakdown Sunday night, and I think I'm gonna get help with my spiritual life. please pray for me.

I love the rain..

well, honestly, I do! for some reason the rain always seems to soothe me..and I sleep so much better when it's rainy...

so tonight was a really good night. My mom didn't have to work out at the ball fields and so the whole family went to the hospital to see our new baby cousin Mason Eli and then we stopped at the grocery store and got stuff for dinner....me and my mom cooked some Chinese stir-fry together...and they stayed here until 10...it was just the human interaction I needed! except for now I'm a little homesick for them..I know they're only down the street but it seriously is mildly depressing when you're in a huge house to yourself..but the weekend is here and I'm pretty busy all weekend long so things should get better! before I know it I'll be in my bed in my house with my family again!

just wanted to let everyone know that I'm better tonight...off to bed!

ugh.

I'm falling behind in my blogging world. I shouldn't be, I have tons of time on my hands...so much time, that I find myself bored and lonely. I'm house-sitting for my aunt's fiancee..they flew to Arizona to meet the rest of his side of the family....the wedding is two years away so it's gonna be a while. The good thing about house-sitting?? he gave me money for my food. and he has a pool. but I stuck my toes in the pool today and about peed my pants because the water was so bloody cold. ugh. so a pool and no use for it.

I went to church tonight...not to my church but A church, which is a lot better than what I've been doing...and I really enjoyed myself. The message got me thinking...I know now that if I'm not in the right condition with my heart here in about three weeks, I don't need to be going to Falls Creek as a sponsor. I don't want to be leading kids in the wrong direction, and show them the way to making mistakes since that's what it seems I'm best at.

sorry about the little rant on my last post. I'm not quite sure if I was flat-out ignored, but that's how I felt. and it hurt. it's a boy...that's where most of my drama seems to be coming from here lately...it was just hard on me that day because I had tried calling him for a week and no response whatsoever. His dad talked to me more than he did, and I was afraid that it was over something silly....me getting a tattoo...I don't know where it stands now...he called me last night and was supposed to go to church with me tonight but couldn't because of practice and stuff...so we'll see how it goes...he'll be traveling for baseball, so after this weekend I may not see him anymore this summer.

wow now that I have written a novel about a boy that no one probably cares about, I think I'll call it a night.

p.s. I made it to Sperry's graduation..one of the boys that works for my mom in the concession stand saved my life and covered my game for me so I could go watch my girls graduate! (and guys too!)

oh geez.

I'm home from work. I made $90 today. but they are long days. and I hate when I'm ignored, just in case you were wondering. I wish I would be spoken too. and not treated second rate. bleh. I get treated better by fathers than that. ugh it sucks. I miss it. whatever.

I like work though. easy money. I just get a little bored sometimes..

so I totally missed Skiatook's graduation...and it sucked. and I'm hoping I won't miss Sperry's either. oh well I guess....

later..

wow

ok so yeah, it's been a LONG time. I have completed my first year of college. I'm so excited about that because for the first two weeks I thought I was going to quit.

I have watched our high school baseball team make it to the finals in the state championship and lose.

I have been to Dallas and back.

I feel like a part of me is missing...he doesn't speak to me much anymore...like there's an emptiness in the pit of my stomach, and it's making me sick...

I've spent more money on clothes than I think I ever have..

I've watched my brother go from being completely ecstatic to mildly depressed...

I've moved back home!

I've had 4 friends graduate, and will soon have many more...

I've gotten a tattoo!! =)




THIS SUMMER IS GOING TO BE AMAZING...

so it's my second night home and ALREADY I went a little crazy.

what is that craziness you ask??


I got a tattoo. a purple crescent moon and 3 yellow hearts. on my hip. and I took my momma with me.



CRAZY, I know.

ok, so the weight was wrong.

I went to the doctor today and I way 168! that's 7 less than last Monday (yeah I know it's not the same scale, but it makes me feel good about myself!)

tomorrow I get a day off from tests. so I'm going to watch our boys play some baseball in the first round of state! wish 'em luck!

Blogging world, I'm so sorry!

It has been so crazy over the past few days, I don't have much time to blog. two words: FINALS WEEK. hopefully after this week things will return to almost normal and I'll be able to catch you guys up on what's going on and with the memes.

but as of Monday morning, I lost 4.3 pounds! I was almost there, haven't weighed since then, and I haven't been eating as well...

I missed the anniversary,
but
Rest In Peace Tyelor L. Redfern. we still think of you down here....and I miss you buddy. I know we were young but you were one of my good guy friends. I'm thinking about getting a memorial tattoo for you since your tree blew down (and I think our class is still working on getting a replacement) we love you, and I know your family still thinks about you all the time.

peace out homes.

10 things you possibly don't know about me.

I've been tagged by Rebecca from The Rants from Sunnybrook Farm to post Ten Things You Don't Know About Me.....here goes...


1. I like Chemistry. A LOT. in fact, I'm thinking about taking Chem 2 here at college just for fun since I don't need it for my major.

2. Bobby and I have matching birthmarks on our backs. I like to think of it as a sign that we're supposed to be together. *smiles*

3. When I was 6, my brother attacked me (ok, so I like to make things a little dramatic. Here's the real story..). actually I wanted to play house, and he wanted to play ninjas. So me being the bossy older sister that I am, I decided we were going to play house anyways, and was trying to tell him he was the dad and I was the mom and he threw a stick at me. The stick hit right above my right eye and cut down to the skull. I wouldn't have even known I was cut if the blood hadn't ran into my eyes, and I freaked out.

4. I have a goddaughter who was born Feb. 21.

5. my mom is one of my best friends. and she seriously knows just about everything. and she doesn't like hearing some of the things I tell her but she lets me spill my guts anyways.

6. Jell-O FREAKS ME OUT. seriously. I don't think something should be solid AND move.

7. I'm almost a tanorexic (meaning I like to tan in tanning beds). When my mom tells me I'm too dark I stop. and while I'm in tanning beds, I like to concentrate on getting my feet dark. I know I'm weird....and please, no lectures on skin cancer..I know the risks! I even had a great aunt that had it.

8. My grandma is my hero. She's slipped on black ice and broken her ankle, got hit by a semi and only got 40 stitches in her head (yes, ONLY), and she's survived breast cancer. (oh, and as my friend Caroline likes to say she buys me Mountain Dew.) She's one tough cookie.

9. I almost went to play basketball for a college. I gave up that dream to see my family. (the college was 7 hours away from home and the coach said he didn't know if I would be able to come home for Christmas.) Do I regret it? NOT AT ALL.

10. I've never had a real job. My mom always told me in high school that if I stayed in sports she wouldn't make me get a job. Then this summer I was going to get one, but I was given a proposal to babysit all summer long for good money. So I am still real job-less.



I'm tagging Kristin for now...

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY

ok, so today I kinda slacked.

yesterday's workout was intense. I thought I was gonna keel over and die. seriously. and I haven't weighed myslef since Monday because I was given the advice not to that it just frustrates you.

so Day 2 at the gym was 2 miles on the elliptical (that's my warmup), 1.5 miles on a rowing machine, 30 crunches with the machine (doing it with a machine is friggin' hard!) and 30 lower back reps to help with the abs, and then 1.5 miles on the stair master. I went to dinner then went BACK to the gym to make sure my workout partner did her workout (she didn't go with me the first time). I only did .5 miles on a treadmill walking because my legs were so tired.

no breakfast, lunch was a reuben sandwhich, mashed potatoes and gravy, a salad, and WATER.

Day 3, yeah I've slacked A LOT. I made the mistake of taking burgers to basketball players last night around midnight with my workout partner and so today I was REALLY craving one for lunch. I know, terrible. bacon cheeseburger AND pop to drink. I feel terrible. Gym will be around 7, I'll get back on and let ya know how we did =)