I started out with good intentions by laying out my goals for March. So far I'm on track pretty well. I've got about 9 hours of community service coming up this weekend. I'm working on setting a BIG/little date with little number four (yes I have four different littles). But there are a couple of things that are setting me back:
- I didn't make it past the telephone interview for Teach for America. When I first started the application process, I wasn't getting very excited about it because I didn't want to feel the disappointment from not being selected. But the more I talked to others about it, the more I thought I would be chosen. When I wasn't, I cried. Not immediately because I was in class, but later when I got back to my bed.
- I can't work out. I didn't realize before my appendix surgery how active I really am. I would have loved to have gone for a run yesterday after reading the e-mail from Teach for America to get some good endorphins going, but I couldn't.
- I have to depend on people to drive me around town because of my medication. If you knew how independent I really am, you would understand this completely.
- I don't have my birth control pills right now, and my hormones are all out of whack. Okay, that was probably an overshare, but whatevs. If I can't blog about it then blogging sucks. BCP are probably the big reason why I'm in a funk. The hormones regulate everything for me so not having that in my system is kind of making me a nutcase. Hopefully they'll be here by Friday so I can get back to as close to normal as possible.
I know it's not my fault that my appendix decided to become infected, and that I really have nothing to be so down about, but I just can't help the way it's all made me feel this week. I didn't feel like this last week, and I'm assuming it is because I was at home and not around all my friends who can do all the normal stuff. I go back to see my surgeon on Monday, and I'm hoping she'll give me some good news about being able to return to somewhat normalcy.
And I'm really sorry for posting a Debbie Downer post. I don't like them at all. But I promised myself that no matter what I blogged, I always wanted to be real and honest, as I feel like that is the only way those of you who want to know me will truly know me.
HOWEVER, on a positive note (because you should always end on a good note I think), I did make an A on my piano quiz this morning, I took graduation pictures, and spring break (BEACH!) is 2 weeks away!(slash-I-will-start-the-drive-to-Florida-most-likely-next-Friday!) I can't wait! I'm staying in Treasure Island with 5, maybe 6 friends. It's going to be a nice week to hang out with friends for what will be my last spring break.
Hopefully tomorrow I'll have my first vlog! I'm working on trying to edit the video so that it can be fun :)