I'm an alumni!

I know, I know that I have been a complete slacker all week. I had intended to post a couple of times, but really, I had nothing to write. My brain was completely lazy all week long. Tuesday morning I took my first test. It wasn't that difficult, and really you couldn't study for it. It didn't affect my grade in capstone either.

Wednesday, I slept in way later than I had intended to, and then ended up studying for the remainder of the day. However, I took a break that night to watch the OKC Thunder play game 5. It was fantastic :)

Thursday morning, I took a test at 10:30 a.m. I think it seriously took me 11 minutes to complete the test. It was a lot easier than the midterm in that class. I then went back to the house and studied for the remainder of the day until my test at 4:30 p.m. That test took about 30-40 minutes to complete, and I got a 90% on that one! However, that brought my grade to an 85% overall in the class. lame.

So Thursday evening, I went shopping to find a new dress and shoes to graduate in. I'm not usually successful with shopping at all. I found not one, but TWO new dresses within 20 minutes of getting to the store! Score! But the shoes gave me a hard time, I think I went to probably 6 different stores before I found a pair that went well with my dresses. So what was I to do on my last night in Norman? Hit up Campus Corner, of course! I called up a few friends and met them out at my favorite hangout for a few celebratory drinks. Afterwards, I went and hung out with my friend Michael ("Rags") until WAY too late. I enjoyed the night with him, but it also made me sad to know it was my last night in Norman.

Friday I had a Native American student recognition service, and then went to the Commencement ceremony to listen to the US Secretary of Defense Robert Gates. It was a good speech, and he was actually pretty funny. OH, before I forget. Remember how my brother and I were graduating on the same day? Well, a majority of the family went to his graduation. Then my big tells me she has to work and won't make it. My roommate also had other stuff to do, so she couldn't make it to my ceremony where I got recognized. So needless to say, graduation has been an emotional drain on me. Well my big LIED to me and took work off to fly into Dallas, pick up her mom, and come to my ceremonies. So after the commencement, her mom took us out to dinner. I was very happy because more girls on our hall joined us for dinner :)

Saturday, I overslept, walked across a stage, packed, visited Rags for 15 minutes, and moved out of Norman for the last time. It still hasn't hit me yet because I just feel like I went home for the summer. But I know once August comes around, I'll be a mess.

The family had a barbecue for me when I finally made it back to Sperry. I was thoroughly exhausted and sat quiet for a lot of the night. Except when the family was cracking me up.

Yesterday, I attempted to sleep in, but got woke up by Jake. Then I got called into work. I still had stuff in the back of my car! I worked for about 8 hours and then came home to talk the living situation with my mom and grandma. Unfortunately, I have already moved in with one of my best friends. Not that I'm sad about living with him, I'm just sad that I don't get to stay with my family.

Now I'm looking for a salary job so I can start looking for a place to rent on my own while I try to get where I'm going. Anyone hiring? ha ha

And now pictures:

one of my favorite professors, Dr. Hofford

Ballroom Dancing partner for two semesters

some of my favorite people from Health and Exercise Sciences Student Association

roommate from first semester sophomore year

good friend in my major

"The University of Oklahoma College of Arts & Sciences"

Mimi, me, and Jared after graduation

Things Are About to Get Crazy.

I apologize for not posting a Tell the World Tuesday feature yesterday. Because I'm kind of failing at life right now  it's senior week in my sorority I forgot to pester someone through e-mail last week, I had no one to feature for yesterday. I started to write up my answers to the questions and then got busy. The next two weeks are going to be a little bit of a hell. I have my spin class final today at 1:30. Did I tell you guys that the professor is making me make up for the days I missed during my appendix surgery? No? Well she is. And it pisses me off. But whatevs.

I have a capstone test tomorrow. I have to write up the discussion section of our paper, and it's due Tuesday. My capstone is pretty simple and fun, we got into groups of four and conducted a mini-research study. My group's goal was to see if there was any significant effect of a one-day dose of creatine monohydrate on the 1-rep max for bench press, hand grip strength, and number of repetitions to fatigue at 70% of the 1-RM. Did you follow that? Anyways, so we have to write a formal lab report, and it takes time.

Next week is my piano final. We meet both Monday and Wednesday to play different parts of the final. I also have my poster presentation for capstone next week. Then the next week I have 3 finals during finals week.

BUT, our last date party is this weekend, and the theme is "All the best things were made in the 80's" because my pledge class is narcissistic the last pledge class to have every member born in the 80's, we decided on this theme. It can be anything from the era, minus a stereotypical 80's outfit. My date and I are going as Judd Nelson and Ally Sheedy from The Breakfast Club. It's going to be fun.

The club for my major is also hosting a picnic next Friday, so I'll be having a little bit of fun amidst all of the tests and projects.

So please, please bare with me as things may get crazy around here. But I graduate in 16 days!

Just a Quick Update to let you know I'm still alive!

Hey guys,

Sorry I have been MIA for the past couple of days. I have been ill and yesterday got kind of bad (after I took a nap).

I am starting my first round of exams, I had a piano exam yesterday and I will have another exam today at 3 p.m.

The weekend will be nice and relaxing, and sports galore! I'm going to the baseball opening day tomorrow, followed by women's gymnastics, and then rounding out the weekend with OU/OSU bedlam wrestling.

The good news part:
So Way back in October when I first started posting consistently, I mentioned that I wanted to apply for Teach for America (I have even had discussions with some about this goal too.) I turned in my application on Feb 4, and found out this past Tuesday evening that I made it past the first round and have been invited to a phone interview! I will be doing my phone interview this Sunday, and from there I may be selected for a final in-person interview the week of spring break. So exciting!

Second, I was featured over at FTLOB on Tuesday! I was super pumped to see my header when it popped up in my google reader! (And hello to the new commenters/followers that came from there! THANK YOU!)

Third, yesterday I was featured on Scenic Glory for her "In Her Shoes" feature. I knew this one was coming, but I was anxious to see what photos she would use for my feature.




If you haven't checked out FTLOB or scenic glory yet, you need to! That is where I have found a majority of the people I enjoy reading and people who inspire me.

I've also met a girl who I would probably call a close friend through For The Love of Blogs as well. She's a fantastically beautiful lady.

So go check out my features, and check out the blogs themselves as well! You'll love them!

I will update more this weekend when I'm not trying to study for tests, do laundry, and overcome being sick!

Happy Thursday! It's almost the weekend!!

Today is just one of those days.

I'm completely frustrated and flustered with no real reason. It's a lot of little annoyances that are getting me down today...

Woke up at 6:30, 9:45, and finally at 10:30 to the strangest dreams. First dream I was a participant in a Saw game. Second and Third dreams were a continuation of each other in where I got married, but the groom changed between the two dreams. These dreams of getting married are really starting to freak me out.

My hips are so sore that I am having difficulty walking, and I'm just completely frustrated about it because of the very big race I have coming up. I'm not at all trained, and I blame myself, but this soreness is not helping me out at all.

My right contact is doing something funky today and is irritating the crap out of my eye.

And to top it all off, I just checked my grade for the statistics test I took on Thursday, and I barely passed. Thank you Tuesday for sucking.

I just need to go back to getting ready for bed last night and change what I was thinking about just before I fell asleep, so that maybe I won't have the weird dreams that lead to a bad day.

Sorry for being a Negative Nancy today, but some days just aren't full of rainbows and butterflies. If things improve later today, I'll try to post something worth reading, but for now this is all you get.

Sincerest apologies for my tardiness.

So last night began initiation for Alpha Phi Omega. It began with vote-in, where initiated members vote on each of the pledges on whether or not they would like to see that particular pledge initiated. I'm not gonna lie, I was a tad bit nervous. I missed ONE requirement, and tried to make up for it a little bit with other things, but I wasn't exactly sure how the rest of the chapter would feel about it.

At 8:56 p.m., I get a phone call from my big (Brook) and she says, "Congratulations, you have been voted to become initiated into Alpha Phi Omega! . . . (my heart stops racing) . . . Now what you need to do is meet at the duck pond at 10:15, and you need to be dressed in blue and gold. If you don't have blue, wear all gold, and if you don't have gold, wear all blue. Do not come any earlier than 10:15! I'll see you tonight and good luck! (click)" . . . Now continue my racing heart. I had absolutely no t-shirts that were blue and yellow that did not have Alpha Gamma Delta on it, and I felt that it would be inappropriate to wear my other Greek letters. BAHHHH!!!

I was having a near-panic attack and was about to cry when one of my Alpha Gam sisters saved my night and let me borrow a yellow shirt.

After vote-in is a BIG/little bonding sketchy time (won't go into full details, just know everything was super sketch, but then it also helped me bond more with two of my pledge brothers), and then we ended the night at IHOP.

I got back home around 1 a.m., and because of all the super sketch activities, I had adrenaline pumping through my system for about an hour. Needless to say, it was hard as hell to focus on studying when I got home. I calmed myself down enough to study for about an hour and a half, then got up in bed and CRASHED.

So if you have been reading my posts, you'll know that my stats test this morning was supposed to be the end of 8 straight weeks of testing. I failed and realized at lunch today that my last test is next week. Along with a term paper the following week. The good thing about the term paper is that it is only a rough draft that is due, so hopefully that won't be too difficult to accomplish. HOWEVER, that will make TEN weeks. TEN WEEKS PEOPLE! WHY?! bahhhh! Why can't senior year of college be like senior year of high school. Oh that's right, because everyone goes to high school but not everyone goes to college. The stats test today was by far the hardest test I've taken this semester. I just want a freaking C. I don't even care if I get a B or not anymore, just let me pass and get the eff outta there! (As you can tell, I'm slightly sleep deprived, therefore proper grammar and spelling is going out of the window.)

To all my random readers, read my friend's post here and let me know what you think about her question too! I was slightly appalled by her friend's statement. Are we always supposed to be searching? Or should we let things fall into place?

Before this year, before I ACTUALLY began to love EVERYTHING about myself, I wasn't searching. I thought I had found him. I thought everything that we had been through and everything that we had shared would help us come together again. I knew that I knew that I knew that he loved me as much as I did him. We had dated for 2-ish years, and still remained VERY close for 4.5-5 years after that. What changed? We both did. I grew up, he grew up on a different side of the country, we both experienced things that the other didn't understand because our paths were diverging so differently. When I realized that we actually DIDN'T love each other anymore, I cried. I think they were partly tears of sadness, and partly tears of relief. Sadness because we HAD shared so much, sadness because did we just cause each other to waste FIVE years of each others' lives? Only time will tell. Relief because it WAS a realization. A good realization (for the both of us!)

I do hate that now he thinks poorly of me, and has nothing nice to say to me, but one of these days we'll take every ill thought and comment back and remember that we can be civil. After all, our circles of friends run pretty close, and I still love his family. They are people who saved me, they just don't know it. In a way he saved me too. I'll never be able to thank him properly now, but in the off chance that anyone out there knows who this "he" is, cherish him. He could save you too.

I never would have known self-love without him catapulting a series of events that lead me to where I am today. And for that, Mr. R., I thank you.

That post totally got wayy deeper than I had intended, but reading Sam's blog almost always makes me think!

p.s. Thank a Veteran today America. Special thank you to my Uncle Ed, Jason, Wes, Kendrick, and the rest of C Co of the 489th EN BN that I've known almost my entire life. I love each and every one of you guys, and appreciate the sacrifices you all made in the 18+ months you were deployed!

I'll leave everyone with this, in your name, there is DEFINITELY healing.

I'm SO over tests....

**sidenote**if you wonder why my eyes are cropped out of pictures, it's because I'm seriously debating on deleting my facebook account. They have a new facial recognition thing and it freaks me out. I feel like it's invading a lot of privacy. The only problem is that SO many people use facebook that it will be hard to find a way to keep in touch with all these people. So until I find a different social networking site, I will continue to crop photos so that I can't be connected between sites. It just weirds me out...

I had some VERY strange dreams last night. I woke up on three separate occasions to three separate dreams. I really can't remember what 2 of those three dreams were (because one was at 4 a.m., the other was when I realized class started in 40 minutes so I got up frantically), but the third one was weirdly interesting. So at roughly 8 a.m., I woke up to a dream about me getting married. If any of y'all know anything about my recent life goals, you know I'm not sure that marriage is in my future. This is for 2 reasons: 1 I am selfish and want to go live in London for a few years, but I still want to have children. I don't think that anyone will want to have children around the age of 40; 2 I don't know that anyone will really be able to handle all aspects of my personality at once :)
So anyways, I'm getting married through arranged marriage via my aunt Jessica, and my husband is from the military. I'm not exactly sure on which branch, but I'm pretty sure it was from the army. I've never met my soon-to-be-husband before my wedding day, and I briefly saw him as he was walking into the church. He was gorgeous, and so was my dress. Navy blue was one of my colors, but none of my college friends were there (which is were I was confused), and none of my high school friends had no idea that I didn't know my husband. My ring was pretty too. As I was putting on my dress, I accidentally stepped on the hem and a bunch of sequins popped off. that was when I woke up.

Anyways, aside from the strange dreams, this week marks week number SEVEN (in a row) of tests/papers. I also have a test next week too. That's right, eight straight weeks of having tests/papers. It's very annoying. I'm not used to having my tests spread out so much. I almost would prefer them all to be in one week, because now, with week seven I have ZERO motivation to study. I do have a review session tonight for the test I have tomorrow, so I will be going to that. Hopefully I'll get something out of it.

This weekend marks INITIATION for PC X, and my very first fraternity date party on Saturday (you can read about how excited I am here). Also, soul twin turns 21 this weekend, but he and I will be hanging out next weekend to celebrate. I also get initiated to Alpha Phi Omega next weekend. I'm very excited :)
That's just about everything that is somewhat exciting in my life right now. I'm going to take a nap and then get up and around and shower.

ps, I want to watch V for Vendetta tomorrow--"Remember, remember, the 5th of November" :)