project lose 5 lbs well underway..

well, I've started off great. if my readers will allow me I'm gonna use this as sort of, my journal on my progress...

Day 1

weight: 175
breakfast: 1 bowl of oatmeal and 15.2 fl oz of apple juice.
lunch: chicken teriyaki stir-fry and 2 glasses of water.
dinner: a wheat wrap with turkey and bacon, veggies, and honey mustard dressing (couldn't help it); baked lay's; oatmeal raisin cookie (it all comes as a meal); WATER TO DRINK! (I'm doing pretty good with this no pop stuff.)

at the gym: 25 minutes on an elliptical machine (2 miles)
75 situps, and 75 side crunches for each side.
3 sets of 10 reps for both biceps and triceps.
15 minutes on the stair master (1 mile).

overall, I'm pretty happy with what I've done today. I don't usually eat breakfast and when I do, it consists of Mountain Dew. but I'm serious about this weight goal.





it's like half of me wants to be with him
&& the other half wants to get over him
i guess i'll always have that something for him <333

goals...

so I've kinda set a short-term goal for myself: I want to lose 5 lbs in 2 weeks. If I do that, I will have left school weighing the exact same as when I started. It would be great to lose more, how many people can say they finished their freshman year of college weighing less than when they started??? and maybe if I focus on going to the gym everyday, it will help ease the stress of studying for finals.

wish me luck!

Sunday.

yes, I am aware that my "Sunday" post is actually very early Monday morning. but this is my down time. after working all day, I sped home (to Norman) to try to make it to the mandatory meeting my RA was having. being 15 mins. late, I thought I'd be fine. nope. they were done. So when I went down to unload my stuff from my car I get sassed by my RA. Merry freaking Christmas to you too.

I made good money again this weekend. next weekend, no matter what, I shall be staying here to study for finals....wish me luck, I'm gonna need it =)

the bad thing about staying here is I will be disappointing a few people (every one of them in baseball). This week is regionals and it's kind of a big deal. but I SERIOUSLY need to study for finals, and if I go home I know I won't study.

so this week is "get ready for finals", weekend is study, study, study, Mon-Wed and Fri are finals days and then DALLAS HERE I COME!! =) I can't wait..

now it's off to bed to wake up for my 8:30 in the morning.....hopefully I'll go this time =)

Saturday morning ramblings.

So last night was a good night to be at home. nothing special really happened, I just sat around lazily with the family and watched TV. my surprise was ruined....the video I said I was making for my mom for her birthday???? I slipped and told her. I knew I would. It happened because I told her I needed to get her camera from my aunt and she asked why and I said because I need to take pictures of us, but especially Jacob. then she asked why, and without thinking I said "I'm making a video of the three of us" and she assumed it was for Mother's Day. (speaking of Mother's Day, add that to my list of things that are causing me stress....I completely forgot it was coming up and don't have any idea what to get her....I'm thinking maybe a pedicure). anyways. So now she knows what it is. and that she's not getting it for mothers day *sighs* oh well.

Bobby texted me last night and said he had a 3-hour meeting with a sports agent that he's probably going to hire for next year. Exciting, yes, but man do I hate it. I'm still not ready for him to graduate and leave me, even though we're "not together" and haven't been since school started for me..(ask anyone who knows me pretty well and they will tell you he still has my heart, and that no matter how much we say we're not together we might as well be.) I'm happy for him though, it's what he wants, and me wanting him to stick around for me and not follow his dream is just selfish. I honestly do what him to chase his dreams!! I am. *smiles*

well, it's off to work today. it will be kinda slow compared to last weekend, but hey, it's still money that I love to have in my pocket =)

oh, and I can publish my best friend's news on here now that she's told everyone.....she's getting married in October 2008. exciting, but I'm not so sure about it...they've only been dating a couple months..

Friday's Feast.

Appetizer
How fast can you type?
actually, I don't know an exact word-per-minute. but pretty fast.

Soup
What is your favorite online game?
ANYTHING Sudoku. I love brain teasers. but I like Yahoo! pool too. I could waste hours on there.

Salad
On a scale of 1 to 10 (with 10 as highest), how intelligent do you think you are?
probably about a 6. I thought I was smart, but college is beginning to prove to me that I'm not as smart as I thought I was (is there a difference between "smart" and "intelligent"?)

Main Course
Name three of your best teachers from your school years.
1. DEFINITELY Mrs. Ed. High school English 4 teacher. absolutely amazing.
2. I LOVE Dr. Gaffin, intro to Zoology professor. You can tell he has a passion for what he does, and his lectures are NEVER boring. he puts pictures and cracks jokes to make it more interesting because it is tons of information to know.
3. Mrs. Hamersley-high school science teacher. even though she didn't like me as much my senior year, she made it to where I could understand Chemistry, and I really like it a lot. it really fascinates me.

Dessert
What are your plans for this upcoming weekend?
well I'm driving home, hopefully I'll get to see Bobby, if not, I guess that's ok, and then I'm working..so I'll be making some money! and I have to write a one-page rough draft of my FINAL paper in comp 2. so that just about sums up EVERYTHING.

how many of me

HowManyOfMe.com

There are 0 people with my name in the U.S.A. http://howmanyofme.com">How many have your name?

DOES THIS MEAN THAT I DON'T EXIST?!?!?!!

*checks pulse*....nope I feel a heartbeat =)

Thursday 13 vol.2

THIRTEEN REASONS WHY THERE IS AN INSANE AMOUNT OF STRESS IN MY LIFE




1. my lack of attendance in one class is probably going to make me have a C.

2. That C will be my first ever C.

3. my last paper for English is a proposal argument. and I know what proposal I'm going to make, I just don't know how to make it stretch to 4 pages.

3. my father calls me at the worst times, so I don't answer the phone. and then when I do answer the phone it's just news that adds on to my stress.

4. my bestest friend in the whole world gave me some interesting news yesterday. can't quite publish it on here just yet.

5. I haven't been to the gym on a regular basis for about a month now.

6. Pre-Calculus. (need I say more?)

7. my brother and the things he says on myspace.

8. Today I am making a 2-hour drive to watch 2 friends play baseball against each other and then driving back.

9. I'm also making the 2-hour drive home tomorrow.

10. Bobby. shouldn't need to say more to that either.

11. mom's video. I'm freaked out she's gonna stumble across it on my computer and the surprise will be ruined...or that I'll open my big fat mouth and just tell her.

12. money problems. especially with school and enrolling.

13. FINALS.

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY

I may add more later..

pretty daggom excited.

I'm making my mother a video of me and my two brothers for her birthday this year. I know, it's only almost May, and I have until September...but I just tonight realized that I only have ONE picture of my youngest brother by himself.........*sighs* this is going to be hard work. I just started tinkering around with Windows movie maker tonight, and I think I kinda got the hang of it...so yeah, I can't wait until it's finished already!! but I know that my brother BETTER let me take pictures of him, or he WILL suffer consequences! muah ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha......

I gotta say, I'm pretty pleased =)

So I was a little worried with the last paper I had to write. It was over Emmett Till if you have read my entries before, and it was kinda hard for me to do. I felt like I had so much information I wanted to share and not enough space to do it in. But when we got our papers back yesterday, I made a 96 on it!! I'm so excited!

this weekend was SO much fun! I'm the GM at O'Brien for scorekeepers, and on Thursday night I was calling everyone to try to find people to work for me. so I asked my friend here from school, Flip if he would come and spend the weekend with me and work for me. He came, and Friday night we didn't even have time to go home and drop our stuff off before we started working. So Friday after the games were over, I took him around Sperry (not very big at all) and showed him where I go to church, and my high school and all that stuff. He's from Houston, so being in a small town with hardly any lights kinda creeped him out. So just for giggles I took him out to where Bobby lives because it's really dark out there!

then Saturday after work, Bobby came over and the 3 of us went and drove by the Indian cemetery, the witch's cemetery, and the cult house. It made me and Bobby laugh because Flip was like "THIS is what y'all do for fun?!" It was actually hilarious.

well, I made good money this weekend, $15 a game! The bad thing about it is that I didn't get back here in Norman until almost midnight though (the "if" game was played. bleh).

I'm so excited because there's only 9 more days of class, and then finals week! I absolutely cannot wait for summer break! and the weekend after finals, I'm staying the night with Becky and getting a tattoo! and then I have graduations to attend...it's gonna be busy!

well I'm trying something new.

13 Random Stuff.

1.I'm really new to blogger and I don't quite get it yet.

2.I love the college I'm at and can't imagine why people aren't wanting to come back in the fall.

3.My favorite season is fall. The leaves and the slight wind here in Oklahoma make it so pretty =)

4.as much as I don't like to admit it, Bobby is one of my biggest weaknesses. It seems that no matter how hard I try to move on, he always says or does something that sucks me back in.

5.My room at home has to be a complete mess or else I won't know where anything is.

6.I REALLY don't like my father. He skipped out when I was young and now wants to be a part of my life again. he is actually causing more stress in my life that I don't need.

7.I want to be a physical therapist and a novelist on the side =) I love to write.

8.I really like Chemistry too. it sounds odd but it's one of my favorite subjects.

9.Our school held a candlelight vigil last night for the victims of Virginia Polytechnic Institute. Bagpipes playing Amazing Grace make me cry EVERY TIME.

10.as much as I try to pretend that I'm not when I go back home, I'm still a big jock that wears nothing but jeans, t-shirts, and tennis shoes on a daily basis to school.

11.even though I like to write, I have problems starting and finishing things that I'm writing. But once it has been started, I could go on for days =)

12.I have an aunt that is getting married in two years and I will be a bridesmaid. I know it's far off, but I'm really excited about it because I've never been in a wedding!

13.The day after finals, I'm spending the weekend with a friend in Dallas, Texas. While I'm down there, I'll be getting my first tattoo =)



well that was fun! now on to what I REALLY need to do...study for my math exam!

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY (old friends v. new friends)

Virginia Tech Tribute

when will the people of this world stop looking to violence? when will it be enough? too many lives are taken through school shootings. stop all violence, not just when a tragedy happens. don't start it with the jabs you take at each other.

I hope everyone's colleges have taken precautions to ensure safety to everyone. God bless.

Friday's Feast.

Appetizer
When you were a child, which crayon color was your favorite?
my favorite crayon color actually WASN'T purple...I loved Jungle Green!!!


Soup
On a scale of 1 to 10 (with 10 being highest), how likely would you be to change jobs if it required you to move?
well right now it's a 10...just because I'm thinking I need some new scenery to try to figure out who I am and forget some people.


Salad
Take all the numbers in your birthday and your phone number and add them up, one by one. What’s the total?
76.


Main Course
Have you ever “re-gifted” anything? If so, what was it and who did you pass it on to?
actually, I don't think I have. If I have regifted, I don't remember.


Dessert
Name something you need from the store.
I don't really think I need anything....today!

more icons and quotes for your viewing pleasure!

Easter was great. I really like my aunt's fiancee..he's a pretty cool cat =) his kids are fun too and I really wish my aunt's two daughters would give them a chance.

because I'm so cool and I don't know what else to write, I guess I'll do another icon/quote update..



sometimes I wonder if he honestly knows how bad he hurt me.


i remember when i used to be the happiest,
loudest, spunkiest person alive.
nothing could get me down for very long.
i smiled all the time and laughed nonstop.
i still see glimpses of that girl sometimes,
but not much. i miss her.

he's one of those guys who
REALLY DOES LOVE YOU
((but never really learned how to show it))

she's tired of waiting for him
she's sick of always falling for his words
she wants to leave.
[[but he keeps pulling her back in]]



She closes her eyes..
Her makeup runs..
He got the best of her....

Maybe I made a huge mistake by going out with you. Maybe I was wrong to fall for you, but whatever I did wrong, the biggest mistake I made was believing everything you said. By trusting you, I ended up giving you a piece of me and letting you see a part of me that not many people do. I wore my heart on my sleeve just dying for you to take advantage of my love......and you did.

Friday's Feast.

Appetizer
When you travel, which mode of transportation do you prefer?
hmm...this one is kind of tough because I like to ride in airplanes because by traveling by airplane you can go overseas and get places faster. but honestly, I would probably say car, just because if you take a car, more people can travel ((we usually travel with about 20 people when we go on vacation)) and I absolutely love road trips. so car =)

Soup
Have you ever met a blogging friend in person?
no. I only have one blogging friend that I don't know. Sad I know.

Salad
When was the last time you were really, really tired?
I've been really, really tired all week ((see my blog from Wednesday, I think)) I think it was because even though I was home for spring break, I got an entire new sleeping schedule, and then when I came back to school I tried to have my old sleeping schedule. It made me really tired. I've slept more than I've been awake all week long.

Main Course
If you could have dinner with any one fictional character from a book or movie, who would it be?
oh it would be Stephanie Plum from the Janet Evanovich series. those books crack me up and Stephanie is a mess. =)

Dessert
Fill in the blank: One day, I hope to see _______________.
One day, I hope to see my great-grandmother in heaven. I was told she was a pretty cool lady and I never got to meet her because she died two years before I was born.




Like I promised, here's poem #3:

*You're Perfect*

Because everything you do

Makes me smile...

Because every second I spend with you

Is worthwhile...

Because when you laugh at me

I laugh too

Because everyone else can see

That I'm devoted to you

Because I love your eyes

and the way the shine...

Because you don't tell lies

And you're so cute when you whine...

Because when you get mad

You can't hide it...

Because even when you're sad

I can find it...

Because the way you hold me

Sends shivers down my spine...

Because your spirit's so free

and you're so dang fine!

Because I never stop thinking about you

It's not fair

Because you're just perfect

and no one else can compare...

you cannot even begin to imagine how much I miss this. These used to be the best things in my life, I don't know where either of us has gone wrong, but I'm trying my best to fix it.

just a bunch of quotes and icons that I feel say the words I can't. =)

we're not sarcastic -------we're hilarious
we're not annoying -------we're just cooler than you
we're not bitches ---------we just don't like you.
we're not obsessed -------we're just best friends.

He said last night that she was the one...
but men and mascara always run


All that I want is
for him to wrap me in his arms, kiss me on the forehead,
tell me I'm the only one for him, cuddle when we watch movies, protect me from the pouring rain with his lips, and to love me.

The best feeling in the world is knowing
someone is missing your smile. :)

I had no one to look up to
so I looked down on myself.

A friend is someone who
knows the song in your heart
& can sing it back to you
when you've forgotten the words.

p.s. Poem #3 will return tomorrow, the last one..

ugh...just ready for this week to be over.

ok, so there's something wrong with me. something SERIOUSLY wrong. I have been sleeping so much, I've lost my appetite, and I'm having TERRIBLE mood swings. oh, and to top it all off, I've been kinda nauseous too.

today was pretty much amazing. ((please note the sarcasm))
to start off my oh-so-wonderful day, I slept through my alarm...about an hour. late to class, didn't read what was supposed to have been read for my second class...got to my third class and the battery for my clicker was busted. that was just great. went to lunch and spilled my pop. went to my math class and felt completely stupid the whole time.
came to my room, and started looking at my checkbook to see how much I wanted to spend on my Easter outfit, then checked my balance online..ok, so I REALLY can't do math, because I had $110 more in my checkbook than I did online, turns out I had done the math WAAYY wrong. ugh, I'm just ready for Friday.

I'm going to see The Reaping with Shane. I'm so excited!! I absolutely cannot wait.
sorry that it's no Wordless Wednesday, I wasn't really up for it since I've had such a great week. Wordless Wednesday will return next week =)

here's poem #2:

"Being With You"

Being with you

Is something so sweet

You make me so happy

And you make my heart skip a beat

Being with you

Is something I love

You’re an angel from above

That made my dream come true

Being with you

Takes away the pain

You take away all the sadness

Even though sometimes you drive me insane

Being with you

Is something I adore

And each and everyday

I love you more

tomorrow's another day.

I was on an old blog site of mine last night, and ran across a few poems that were added to a person's site with me in their mind. It made me realize how much passion we once shared between each other, but somewhere along the way both of us lost it and filled it with jealousy, anger, and distrust. amazing how life can throw ya curveballs in once-precious relationships. here's one of the poems:

PERFECTION IN MY EYES
All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare,
You're perfect and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

paper #4...and we're on the homestretch!!

ok, so paper #4 for Comp II is going to be the hardest. but I'd rather this be the hardest than the last one.

I only have five weeks of school left! ((including finals week!)) I'm SO super pumped about it!! I absolutely cannot wait for summer vacation. I'm SO going swimming 24/7 to make up for last summer.

paper #4 is a CAUSAL ARGUMENT--this caused that, that caused another this, and so on. my topic is Emmett Till. anyone who doesn't know the story should look it up. it's pretty interesting, and kinda makes me mad but in a way shows me how far we've come as a nation.

weekend, AMAZING. I went to dinner and a movie Friday night for under $10.

HIGHLY RECOMMEND BECAUSE I SAID SO! cute and funny movie. definitely a chick flick.

Saturday night was dinner at Charleston's with the SW and the aunts. loooove that restaurant. and ice cream at Annya's =)

today was Hannah's birthday party! she was crackin' me up with the candy.

AMAZING service at church. that's all there is to say about that

and then today on my way home, I have one day of this summer planned! I'm pumped =) me, Shane, && Kendra are all gonna go to Frontier City together!

now it's finishing my annotate bibliography and going to bed!! ((don't worry, I only have about 3 sentences left to write.))